Last night marked Lincoln's first night sans pacifier. 
And it was rough. 

He's gone 2 weeks now with out having it all day, only using it to sleep at night, so we figured he was clearly ready to part ways with his old pal. 
He wasn't.
I put him to bed and assured him he was a big boy that could go to sleep without his binkie, but he didn't believe me. So I showed him the basket where the plethora of pacifiers were normally kept, and upon a deep and thorough inspection, he concurred that it was indeed empty. Since I was feeling a little guilty for taking his beloved away, I stayed I his room with him and read him a couple of stories. All through 3 books, he cried and screamed. Eventually, I decided my being there wasn't helping, and I left him alone, to cry. For almost an hour, he sobbed, and it was so heartbreaking! Richard and I lay in bed listening, and there was nothing I could do to hold back a few tears of my own. NOTHING breaks my heart like hearing my child's cries of sadness. 
And while he woke up this morning with no mention of the nights events, I think it will take me a lot longer to forgot having to be the one to break his little heart.
And while he is just a child who in a few days will forever forgot that the pacifier was ever even a vital part of his life, I can relate to his tear filled night.
Haven't we all spent nights with uncontrollable tears, begging for something thats out of our control?? 
It sucks.
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melifaif said...

Ahhhh, I knew you could do it! I know it is hard, but it will get easier....you go momma. Great way to do it....

tessica said...

i hated when i had to do this with my daughter!
and to make matters worse i missed one that was on a shelf RIGHT were she could see it!
poor baby!

Alex said...

Oh that suuuucks. I always feel bad when I have to 'be the mum' and enforce misery upon my child (even if it's only for a few minutes).

My daughter has a secret stash of them all over the house so it may take me a little longer.

Anonymous said...

awwwww... lol. he'll be fine. lol

Alicia said...

ahhhh poor little man...i've got to start doing that with little miss but i'm just not ready too....i hate the crying too! breaks my heart! hang in there mama, he'll make it through!

Len♥reNeverM♥re said...

heart breaking...I could relate to your darling boy!
not the same exactly, but I remember when my parents took my credit cards away when I was a teenager! Traumatic!! He'll be ok!!


Dirt On The Rocks said...

its hard getting your children off something. i know right now we're going through the transition of ryu getting to use a cup and well he's just not quite enjoying it. i think it's hard, but it's the first step for your baby to know that they can't always get what they want. hope all goes well with trying to stop the pacifier

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